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OUT100: SOPHIE, Artist of the Year
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OUT100: SOPHIE, Artist of the Year

“My music is political, but talking about politics is boring. I’d rather have a more emotional conversation through the music."

There's electricity among the youthful crowd awaiting SOPHIE's emergence onstage inside Brooklyn Steel, a repurposed manufacturing plant. I stand mid-orchestra, pressed against Juul-sucking fans, as crimson lasers buzz overhead and a hum rumbles from the speakers. At stage right, the artist manifests, her form distorted behind a maze of screens. Slowly, she traverses the stage, a lithe silhouette, until she takes her place at its center. Swaddled in a gauzy wrap that billows over a latex skirt and rhinestone bralette, she arches her spine. Sounds crescendo into a cry of "Take me to Dubai" -- a tease of a new track of the same name -- and SOPHIE commands me to move.

That was September, and what I witnessed was a metaphor for the Scotland-born, Los Angeles-based producer-turned-pop-star's rising career, which has involved a hard-won struggle toward stepping into view. A little more than a year ago, "SOPHIE" was still a faceless moniker for a musician affiliated with producer A.G. Cook -- with whom she worked on material for soda-sapphic pop persona QT -- and the subgenre of PC Music, known for its exaggerated electronic riffs. Soon, questions swirled about SOPHIE's biography and gender. As she invited other artists to perform onstage in her place and avoided questions about her provenance, SOPHIE left most fans with only her name to go by. Many presumed she was a male studio geek hiding behind the feminine alias, a notion bolstered by interviews in The New York Times and Rolling Stone, in which the masculine pronoun was used.

But with the October 2017 release of the video for her single "It's Okay to Cry," we finally saw SOPHIE. I, was that a teardrop in your eye? I never thought I'd see you cry, she croons straight into the camera, her face framed by a pyramid of auburn-red curls and her hand caressing her cherry pout. The green-screen weather behind her shifts from marshmallow clouds to a thunderous downpour. This, clearly, was the moment that SOPHIE was ready to bare herself -- visually, emotionally, sonically -- and to fully embody her art as a singular entity.

Xeon_sophie_out100_100118_0554_f"That was just a time when everything aligned," SOPHIE says, speaking to me just after that September show, with a soft sense of hurt crackling in her voice. "Even now, it's difficult for me to reenter the headspace I was in before. It's not a totally natural state of being for me to be visible. But it's something I'm learning a lot from -- it can be helpful and nourishing to feel embodied. I didn't used to feel like my physical self bore any resemblance to what I felt inside."


Her reluctance to appear as a frontwoman was also, perhaps, an effort to detangle the whole identity narrative before it eclipsed her work. "My music is political, but talking about politics is boring," she says. "I'd rather have a more emotional conversation through the music. You can say something more multidimensional. Pop music is the most relevant format we have to discuss anything. A song can have meaning to people anywhere, without any context."

SOPHIE's music is an innovation when it comes to the electro-pop formula: a brain-tingling ecstasy of disparate (and often disorienting) synthetic sounds that are at once conceptual and surprisingly danceable. Her 2015 compilation album, Product, caught widespread attention with the sped-up, high-pitched vocals of "Bipp" and the fizzing bubble-pops of "Lemonade." SOPHIE says, "I make music to process my feelings;" however, the saccharine sweetness of her songs is often born of hard times. "Living in London -- sometimes I was really miserable, and [Product is] the music I created at that time. It certainly wasn't a celebration of feeling great or lemonade."

With this past June's release of SOPHIE's first studio album, Oil of Every Pearl's Un-Insides, which contains "It's Okay to Cry," the artist stuck to her signature plastic-pop vernacular while expanding to new, experimental territory. It's a vulnerable departure, with singles like the beat-heavy "Ponyboy," as well as "Faceshopping," which interrogates the line between artificiality and reality. It also boasts a roster of increasingly ambitious tracks, like "Is It Cold in the Water," a composition that swells with synths as a voice breathes, I'm freezing / I'm burning / I've left my home. "I'm trying to get to a point with my music where I'm just responding exactly to the way my body feels in that moment," she says.

Xeon_sophie_out100_100118_0387_fIt's three days after SOPHIE's Brooklyn Steel performance, and she's drowsy, having spent a late night polishing new tracks in the studio. "My sign is Virgo," she says, noting that she identifies with Virgo's perfectionist tendencies. It's a proclivity that resulted in her canceling a string of European tour dates -- as well as a controversial Tel Aviv show -- in lieu of finishing new songs, but it's also drawn high-profile collaborators like Lady Gaga, Rihanna, and Madonna. "It's a long way to come for someone who felt completely isolated from the music world and music experiences," SOPHIE says, invoking a word that might describe her own art. "It's surreal."

Photography by Martin Schoeller.
Styling by Mindy Le Brock.
Makeup: Christina Waltz.
Photographed at The Studio, Los Angeles

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Mey Rude is a journalist and cultural critic who has been covering queer news for a decade. The transgender, Latina lesbian lives in Los Angeles with her fiancée.

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The great trans 'hope' of Karla Sofía Gascón's Oscar campaign

The transgender star of Netflix’s Emilia Pérez, Karla Sofía Gascón, is poised to make LGBTQ+ history on Hollywood’s biggest night. She shares why that visibility matters.

To go where no out transgender actor has gone before, Karla Sofía Gascón has crafted a trans character unlike any the world has ever seen.

In the Oscar-favorite film Emilia Pérez written and directed by Jacques Audiard, Gascón stars opposite equally brilliant Zoe Saldaña and Selena Gomez. Gascón plays the titular Emilia, a Mexican cartel head who transitions to live the life she’s always wanted. Emilia is both the hero and villain of her own story: a lesbian, a CEO, a leader, a lover, a singer, and many other things trans characters rarely get to be on-screen.

Emilia Pérez was a major presence at this year's Golden Globes, garnering 10 nominations — the most ever for a comedy or musical film — and winning gold for Best Comedy or Musical, Best Supporting Actress (Zoe Saldaña), Best Song (“El Mal”) and Best Non-English-language Film. Gascón earned a nomination for Best Performance by a Female Actor in a Musical or Comedy and delivered a moving speech about the importance of trans visibility after the film won Best Comedy or Musical. If the awards season momentum continues, she will become the first out trans actor nominated for an Academy Award.

Karla Sofia Gascon in Emilia PerezEmilia Pérez (Karla Sofía Gascon) comforts love interest Epifanía (Adriana Paz). Netflix

The acclaim for Emilia Pérez is culturally and politically significant, as the film and Gascón’s role challenge ideas of what trans representation can and should be. In the musical-crime comedy, Emilia is a criminal, she’s violent, she hides her identity from her wife, and she lives a tragic life. But she’s also fearful, strong, loving, loved, curious, hopeful, loyal, and brilliant. Defying the law and social norms, Emilia refuses to be defined by others, exactly as her portrayer intended.

“I give all my truth and all my soul. Each person is different; each trans experience is different. Humans are not robots; we don’t behave the same way, nor do we perceive things the same. We have the same emotions but within different ranges. Humans are complex, and it makes me very upset when they try to reduce us to a group or a single idea,” Gascón says.

“We are used to seeing these kinds of characters portrayed as simple stereotypes — boxed into prostitution or cabaret, exaggerated comedies, or tragic dramas,” she continues. “Well, no, my dear. Trans people, gays, lesbians, and bisexuals exist everywhere: in sports, science, economics, politics, Christmas, and summer — even in the world of drug trafficking. The problem is that certain institutions find it hard to acknowledge this truth.”

While some critics have argued that the film falls into negative tropes about trans women being violent or deceptive, for Gascón, some of those same complexities are what made the role so powerful. Instead of letting Emilia’s flaws flatten the character into a harmful stereotype, Gascón, under the direction of Audiard, created a three-dimensional and layered human being.

“I think Emilia adapted a bit to me, and I to her. As an actress, I can’t judge my characters; I have to understand them,” she says. “What kind of actress would I be if I portrayed my characters from the outside, questioning their decisions instead of understanding their struggles? Emilia is a very, very complex character who comes from the deepest darkness.... That’s what I gave her: the thickest darkness so that the light could shine brighter.”

Despite the online controversy, Gascón has heard from many trans people who watched and loved the film, expressing that they’re thankful she’s expanding how movie audiences see trans women. “The only comments I’ve received about this are expressions of gratitude for how, for the first time, a trans character is approached in a way never seen before, placing the community in a global context,” she says. “It conveys the understanding that this is not something limited to certain spaces but a social reality we cannot ignore.”

At the 2024 Out100 event, Gascón spoke onstage as an honoree. She shared that a mother had recently approached her to say that the film and Gascón’s press tour are making her trans daughter feel less alone, helping her realize “that there is a place for us in this world.” In a political era when trans rights — and youth, in particular — are under attack, this visibility is vital.

“Every day I remember why I should not let myself sink by criticism or hatred, because there are many people who need us in this world, because we are the owners of our bodies and we do not hurt anyone by loving or feeling,” she said. “Our identity is the only thing we have, and no matter how hard they try, they will never be able to take it away from us — because it is ours.”

While Gascón may become the first actress to break the transgender glass ceiling at the Oscars, she knows the world is overflowing with talented trans creatives who can’t wait to stride the same path she’s walking now.

“All actors and actresses, regardless of their gender, sexual orientation, or skin color, deserve to be recognized for putting their soul into a life written on paper,” she says. “There are many trans actors and actresses who spend their lives acting in small theaters telling big stories. Maybe in a few years, it will be normal to see them collecting awards without anyone being surprised. Four years ago, I was doing the same thing, giving performances in a small theater for very few spectators. That is the hope I want to leave to all my fellow actors.”

This article is part of the Out January/February issue, which hits newsstands February 4. Support queer media and subscribe— or download the issue through Apple News, Zinio, Nook, or PressReader starting January 23.

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